Unwelcome

I’m feeling a lot of big feelings lately, related to the death of my mom in 2011. Holidays are always tough, any milestone is really. I wrote this poem this past weekend to get some of my feelings out and I share it with you because someone out there on the interwebz may also be feeling hard feelings too. I want to be pithy and wise but right now I’m just tired and angry and sad. Remember the people in your life who have lost a loved one and be gentle with them.

Unwelcome

I thought
that as time went on
that as children grew up
the Mom-shaped hole in my heart
would diminish
would heal
I might have a scar
but the hole would close.
Instead I find
it only increasing
As memories are made without her,
and memories of her fade – her voice and her face are harder and harder to bring to mind these days –
the Mom-shaped hole gets ripped open anew
and the edges are jagged and rough and tender
to the touch.
This part of my grief was unexpected and is unwelcome.
Milestones grow more bittersweet
Holidays can overflow with anguish
as I recall the dishes she made or the words she said.
So many questions will stay unanswered.
So many words will remain unsaid.
Apologies will hang in the air.
Little toddler sticky kisses and hugs
and big kid jokes and sweet loves
won’t be seen or felt.
Of course her love and presence
surrounds me always.
But her absence is felt all the more keenly for it
Some days I wish I was as strong as her love was.

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CrowsToes Nail Color The ONLY Elves on My Shelves [December 2018 Polish Pickup Pack] [press sample]

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CrowsToes Nail Color The ONLY Elves on My Shelves [December 2018 Polish Pickup Pack] [press sample], 3 coats. Formula was really smooth and I had no dragging troubles at all.
1 coat of glossy top coat
Cap: 50 polishes available
Price: $12
Availability: December 7-10

CrowsToes Nail Color The ONLY Elves on My Shelves Polish Pickup Pack December 2018 | Be Happy And Buy Polish

Oh gosh, I’ve been meaning to post this all weekend, and it was just a tough weekend over all (more on that later). I hope you remember the fluid nail art I created with this polish from CrowsToes? (Go ahead, I’ll wait while you look.) It has been really popular on Pinterest and now you get to see this polish in its full glory, all by itself!
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Fluid marble nail art with CrowsToes Nail Color, Hot Topic Blackheart Beauty, L.A. Colors

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CrowsToes Nail Color The ONLY Elves on My Shelves [December 2018 Polish Pickup Pack] [press sample]
L.A. Colors Circuits
Hot Topic Blackheart Beauty Divine Elements Spirit

fluid marble nail art with L.A. Colors, Hot Topic Blackheart Beauty Divine Elements, CrowsToes Nail Color | Be Happy And Buy Polish

I couldn’t wait to show you my current manicure, so here we are. I picked up a few new polishes from Hot Topic and I received a new polish to swatch; while they were sitting together two of them looked incredible together so I decided to combine them together. Buckle up, buttercup, I’ve got quite a few photos to show you! Continue reading

Thermal, Magnetic, AND Blacklight manicure with Bee’s Knees Lacquer, JReine Cosmetics, P.O.P Polish

Polishes used:
JReine Cosmetics Hiya Georgie [September 2018 Polish Pickup Pack], 3 coats
Bee’s Knees Lacquer It, 1 coat over Hiya Georgie
P.O.P Polish Radioactive Glass [press sample]

magnetic thermal manicure with Bee's Knees Lacquer, JReine Cosmetics | Be Happy And Buy Polish

This is like a “kitchen sink” mani – keep throwing stuff at it and see what works. πŸ˜› I’m not sure that the thermal really works under this but I did really love it!

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Swirled Magnetic and Blacklight Reactive Manicure with Bee’s Knees Lacquer, P.O.P Polish, L.A. Colors

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Polishes used:
Bee’s Knees Lacquer Valak [September 2018 Polish Pickup Pack]
P.O.P Polish Wolfsbane [previously swatched]
P.O.P Polish Radioactive Glass
L.A. Colors Glows Luminous [bottle shot post]

Oh my gosh you all, it’s Doctor Who Day! The new Doctor premieres today and I’m so excited and jumping up and down. I’m unsure about a female Doctor but I’m more than willing to see where this newest season takes us.

swirled magnetic and blacklight reactive manicure with Bee's Knees Lacquer, P.O.P Polish, L.A. Colors | Be Happy And Buy Polish

Anyway…I’ve shown you swatches of the newest P.O.P Polishes and yesterday you saw two nail art manicures with a few of those new polishes. I really wanted to do something interesting with the blacklight reactive top coat from P.O.P Polish besides using it for its intended purpose. I decided to created swirled decals. I looked around and found some polishes that looked nice together, which included a magnetic and a mainstream blacklight reactive polish.

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Manicures with P.O.P Polish Halloween nail polish collection

Press Sample buttonYesterday I shared with you swatches of the Halloween polishes from P.O.P Polish (launching today!) and right now I’m back with two manicures I created with those polishes.

P.O.P Polish FrankenSlick and Jack O Lantern dry brush gradient | Be Happy And Buy Polish

P.O.P Polish FrankenSlick and Jack O Lantern dry brush gradient multichrome | Be Happy And Buy Polish

First up is this dry brush/gradient with FrankenSlick and Jack O Lantern. Doesn’t this look like copper that has a patina?

P.O.P Polish Scared Slick and Eye of Newt gradient | Be Happy And Buy Polish

P.O.P Polish Scared Slick and Eye of Newt gradient close up | Be Happy And Buy Polish

P.O.P Polish Scared Slick and Eye of Newt multichrome gradient | Be Happy And Buy Polish

For this mani, I started with a base of Scared Slick and created a sponged gradient with it and Eye of Newt. It turned out incredible!

I have one more mani to show you but you will have to wait until tomorrow! πŸ˜€ It will be worth it, I promise. πŸ˜› Hint: it has to do with the Radioactive Glass that is blacklight reactive.

P.O.P Polish Halloween nail polishes swatches + review [partial collection]

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P.O.P Polish
Jack O Lantern
Scared Slick
Wolfsbane
Eye of Newt
FrankenSlick
Liquid Glass
Radioactive Glass
Frosted Glass

P.O.P Polish Halloween nail polish partial collection | Be Happy And Buy Polish

P.O.P Polish Halloween nail polish partial collection side view | Be Happy And Buy Polish

Hey everyone! I hope you know at this point how much I love the Pastel Oil Slicks from P.O.P Polish. Well, the maker was looking for swatchers for upcoming Halloween nail polishes and I jumped at the chance. I was sent 5 nail polishes and 3 top coats (a glossy, a matte, and blacklight reactive). These are launching tomorrow at the P.O.P Polish shop, so let’s get to it! πŸ˜€ Continue reading