Polishes used:
Blackheart Beauty Navy Vampire Matte, 1 coat [previously swatched]
Tonic Polish Mirabilis, 2 coats. This is a magnetic multichrome topper; I’ve used the Tonic Polish ring magnet in this manicure.
1 coat of top coat
I’m going to keep this fairly short because I’m super tired. Mirabilis is a seriously amazing polish and if you don’t have it, you’d better buy it. There are all sorts of beautiful colors in this polish.
Life update…it seems like every month I get so overwhelmed with simple tasks and depressed and anxious. Life just kind of sucks right now and blogging has become one of those impossible tasks for me. I’m still doing my nails as a form of self-care but blogging about them has somehow become a mountain that is too hard to climb. And swatching? Forget about it. Looking at polishes to swatch is just…like they feel so heavy, the task feels so heavy mentally.
Looking at the photos of my nail art that I’ve done but not yet posted, it seems so hard to type a post up! And then the more I get behind, the more anxious I feel. That’s one thing about anxiety and depression, I hate how stupid it makes me feel. Because part of me is like, “dude, just get your shit together and do ‘x’ task” and then the more I don’t do it, the more my brain beats me up about it.
I realize that lately I’ve become rather inconsistent around here and I wish I could do something to rectify it. I love my blog but somedays I just can’t get it together. Not only are my own expectations for my nails and photos very high, but added expectations and pressures from “the world”, plus the grind of sharing posts and photos throughout my social media channels …I can see why some bloggers quit.
I turned 40, I’m still in the midst of a move (no nail nook for me yet), two of my kids just went back to school, I’m going through some other personal conflicts, my anxiety/depression is flaring up. Also, one of my cats was ran over and died. I don’t mean to say this in a “poor me” kind of way but just matter-of-fact. Tonight is actually a good night, which is why I’m trying to get some blogging done. My plan is to crank out some blog posts tonight, and then…I don’t know. Hopefully be in a better place soon.
